Do not know what is actually going in my mind. What are the thoughts running inside it. But all I can feel is nervousness..! something that is not mine but still its going away. May be I am missing some feelings or a person with whom the feelings r connected.
I know that he has not the same feelings for me as i m having for him. He used to say that i know him better. i usually get to know his thoughts. I don’t know what does it mean but i think he likes me but he is confused about what he actually wants in his life. I know this from starting that he is confused like hell.! But all I know is he is true.! True means, he did not ever gave me any false promises that he is going to stay with me for the life time as I want. I always felt he can be himself with me only. May be he is like this with everyone. I feel so good with his random short messages or random calls which even shows that he is also missing me sometimes. All that random talks we shared, makes me feel that he is just made for me…!!!!
I don’t know where is the connection between us because he never said about our future neither I asked him for that. Whenever I stop thinking about him, something strange happens and that make my belief strong that we just made for each other! But what is the meaning of all this things when he is just CONFUSED about what he is feeling.! And that makes me CONFUSED..!!!!!
He always wants to feel the connection with someone from he can say that yes,its her with whom he can spend his rest of life..! But I don’t know how I can make him feel that what he gives me the feel..!! 😉
The spark he gave me when I met him is still there in my mind. The spark which still takes away my one breath when someone takes his just name.! The spark which I think always be there which gives me just little smile when I can have his thought.!!! The spark which feels me freedom of being myself…!!!!!!